I am alive!

It’s been quite a while now hasn’t it? =) I can’t even remember the last time I blogged, unless I check the blog itself. The past month has been bittersweet. Bittersweet. I like that word, and in the past month, that word has further solidified its meaning in my life. Life is bittersweet. That’s because we’ll go through all sort of obstacles and challenges, all sorts of things that will hinder us from being happy, things that will trouble us BUT despite it all, we will persevere especially if it is regarding things we care about and at the end, when all is said and done; it will be well worth it. Now, that’s bittersweet.

This past month has been craaaaaaazzzzzyyyy. Well, it’s been busy, but all thanks to God, as He provided, but always guided and accompanied. Finished up 2 big jobs – a TV Commercial and a corporate training video (the first 2 of many more hopefully, projects that me and Eugene begin working on in our careers), tied up all the work related loose ends, settled whatever necessary payments, both work and non-work related and many other things leading up to my trip to Australia. I’ve planned this trip for over 2 months now. It’s seemed so long ago and there were many times since, that I might have contemplated not to do it already. However, this trip will do me much good. I mean, there were many things that were not going good in the past month, but God came through to cut in and say, “look, see things from a different perspective, and trust that I’ll make it ok”. You gotta love God and how He works, eh? =)

I sure as heck will miss Jo, my family, friends and home. I’m only going for 4-6 weeks, but in this time, many things will change I believe. Many things have to. This trip is so important to me because I need to take a break. This break will also help me focus on certain things and improve on them. This break will also help me to re-focus on certain things. My sights need broadening again too. The foreign environment will help, although I’ve been to Australia before. But I enjoy Australia a lot, and I have good memories of being there. It’s winter now, and I enjoy the cold.

God’s been good, as usual, all the time. I thank Him for provision, for blessing, for every single thing. I cannot see my life working without Him, and I sure realize that my purpose in this life is determined by Him, not me.

I’m also thankful for the wonderful BLC 5th anniversary celebrations tonight that made me realize how blessed I am to be part of a family of church friends that have taken me in 3 years ago and I’ve grown with them. It was a beautiful celebration with so many friends and guests. I felt thankful as a host tonight. I felt thankful that I’m only leaving after the celebration. I am thankful for my loved ones and friends who came. I am thankful for meeting good friends like Soo-Inn again; who thought something might have happened to me since I hadn’t blogged in a long while! It was good seeing him again. There is so much to learn from more experienced people and I believe God put them in my life for a reason. I may be going to Australia, but I know I have many things to look forward to when I do get back to Malaysia, and one of them is to catch up with people like Soo Inn.

I’ll be back soon enough; no one will even notice that I’m gone. I trust that this trip will be a fruitful one, and that I’ll come back the same as I did when I last visited Australia 3 years ago – that I’ll be hungrier, rejuvenated, more driven and ready to take on more of life.