He sees you..

God is REAL.

God is good, all the time.

And..God SEES YOU.


I concede, that for the first time in almost 5 months; the strain of filming almost non-stop since has begun to take a toll on me. Physically, I appear tired and drained. My insides feel exhausted a lot of the time. Mentally and emotionally, I'm operating on instinct some of the times.

For the first time in months, I'm beginning to feel burnt out and the novelty of work is beginning to fade and is beginning to take a different shape.

The Bible says to always take rest and seek refuge in the Lord. I didn't feel 'great' going to The Father's House, but I did feel 'good'. Before this job, I had hardly been missing from Church, except for when I took off for a holiday in Melbourne last July. This year, I've missed a bulk in recent times due to being away; so it was really good to be back.

It may be strange for some to understand, but it is true that there is a vacumn and void in our hearts, that can only filled by Jesus. This means a void even no love from any other human can fill.


Psalm 23 - A psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
3 He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.


So..the morning started off nice and the practice session with the rest of the worship team was exciting and felt really good. I dusted off my Zildjian cymbals which haven't been hit for a LONG time, and brought it to church for the first time to give them a good whacking :)

It just felt really good to be in God's presence again. Sure, I trust that Jesus is with me every single day, and that the Lord rests in my heart. But often we get tempted to forget, to disregard, to disobey, to trust ourselves and not Him.

Lord, have mercy.

I must admit (and these struggles are REAL my fellow brothers and sisters) that in the past few months, it has been 'easy' to forget that God is right there. It is easy to forget God. We tend to be so caught up with everything else about life, so caught up with the work 'we deserve to do', 'we work so hard and excel in', 'making something of ourselves'; that we forget the very reason why we got there in the first place. Being away from home, and of course church; meant that there was always a great temptation to drift from God. I was away weekends, I missed Sunday worships, I missed my Life Group and I was busy filming.

By God's grace, I was always reminded not to fall away. God's voice always rung in my heart. Lord, forgive me if I may have been tempted; and thank You, for saving me again.


Your Unfailing Love
"When the darkness fills my senses,
When my blindness keeps me from Your touch,
Jesus come.

When my burden keeps me doubting,
When my memories take the place of You,
Jesus come.

And I follow You there,
To the place where we meet,
And I’ll lay down my pride,
As You search me again.

Chorus
Your unfailing love, Your unfailing love,
Your unfailing love over me again."



It was good to see everyone as usual, and I got to spend a little time with the little one :)

A wide variety of thoughts have been clustering my mind in the past few days. The reminders of the end times coming are among them. End times. You hear some Christians blowing it out of proportion, and some totally disregarding it. When you take a wise look at how today's world has panned out, you can't help but feel that the prophecies of the end times are indeed very real and ever more relevent today. Sigh.

What's more important now is, what are we doing about this?? Those of us who are followers of our Lord, Jesus Christ; what are we doing? The challenge today is for us to have a far greater awareness of who we are, and truly understanding and acknowledging our purpose in this world; and reach out to others - the poor, the hungry, the needy, the battle-worn, our enemies, those we dislike, those we love - with love, the very same kind of love Jesus had when He walked this earth.

I know it's easier said than done. Every day, I am sure we ALL struggle with this. How do we love the very moron who cuts dangerously in front of us in traffic? For example that is. But we've got to try. We've been called and saved for a reason. We sing of being different because Christ has saved us. Let's live up to that, and not just sing the songs of praise. Let's not just stop at singing.

Let's not be just Christian in name as many are out there. Let's not live an empty faith. Let's not be like the sharks disguised as Christians, who go to church on Sundays to pounce on good-hearted genuine Christ followers; who go to make money off real followers. If you think I am just writing this because I'm angry, bitter or ill-informed; think again. I think you're just being naive. These are real problems. These are real cases. These are reasons why many non-believers shy away from God and His people.

I was having an interesting conversation with a close friend, and she said that there are many in the world who are truly hungry for God. I couldn't agree more. The innocent, the basic, the poor - they are all hungry for God. Us? Many of us are just 'too busy', too self-reliant or just putting God on hold while we pursue earthly things first. God can wait it seems. Wait while we make our first million before the age of 30, then God can come in. I think NOT.

She also shared that everyone should at least once, go on a mission trip just to have a feel for being among the broken and needy. It doesn't mean it has to be your vocation or calling, but just to experience and also to extend God's love through yourself. I've always said I'd go, and now, I won't put it off anymore. I made a promise right there in my heart to make it a point to go surely in the near future.

This has also reminded me that I have put off writing to my 2 World Vision children - a girl, Rampai from Thailand, and a boy, Gobinath from India. I must write to them soon. Lord, forgive me for procrastinating.

Hungry we are. We all are, whether we realise it or not. Lord, we want to be hungry for you always, all the time.


Hungry
"Hungry I come to You for I know You satisfy
I am empty but I know Your love does not run dry
So I wait for You
So I wait for You

Broken I run to You for Your arms are open wide
I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life
So I wait for You
So I wait for You

Chorus
I’m falling on my knee
Offering all of me
Jesus You’re the heart is living for"


Thank you Father. Just finishing up this long blog entry has made me feel better already. It's Monday evening now as I finish an entry I had begun on a Sunday night. I had a full day's worth of work put in, and I must say I drove home from work today with renewed understanding of God's timing, purpose, love, patience, wisdom and grace. Father, You help me understand always; and I know I can always trust You to help me decide what's best. Not my time but Yours. Not my will but Yours. I love you.


I Love You Lord
"I love You, Lord
And I lift my voice
To worship You, O' my soul, rejoice!
Take joy, My King, in what You hear,
May it be a sweet, sweet sound
In Your ear."


It doesn't matter where you are, who you are, what situation you are coming from; He sees you. That's truly a powerful statement. 'He sees you'. God sees you. He welcomes you with open arms. He doesn't discriminate. Your past can be left behind. He sees you, and He waits :)

I look back at my blog, and I am reminded of all the times I put up beautiful pictures of God's creations. I am reminded of the difference working as a freelancer was before going back into full-time employment. But it was God's decision for me to go back into employment, as was His blessing that I have the job that I have today. It is different now, a little.

But I leave with a glimpse of what I used to do, and what I still can remain doing :) This isn't an old picture. In fact, it was taken last Wednesday in Singapore. Reminds me that I love doing this, despite hardly taking any pictures with my cam since 5 months ago. I shall not forget the joys I've been blessed with...